Friday, December 24, 2010

Christmas Eve


So I write this morning looking out over boats as the sun rises slowly through the sky.

Tonight is my family's annual Christmas Eve party, I am really looking forward to it. My entire family will be there; Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Grandparents, and even a few Second Cousins. I look forward to this night all year, I'm especially looking forward to it this year because I didn't have to help with any of the set-up!

It probably feels like I haven't written on my blog in forever and I apologize most humbly for that. the last few weeks my computer has been on the fritz but it is fixed now thanks to my Mac Genius Kayla. Because it is fixed I decided to start this morning off with a blog post.

Living alone can be...well kind of lonely. I enjoy it for the most part though, I have spent the last few days wrapping presents in my own special way. The view outside my windows is amazing and I even have a back deck from which to enjoy it. I guess this update is just to assure the world that I am ok and livin' well.

Monday, November 8, 2010

My Brother i getting married

This week has been filled with crazy realizations that "holy crap! my brothers getting married!"

Monday, September 13, 2010

Moody Monday

Today is moody Monday. I dislike Mondays and therefore have decided to be moody today. In addition to deciding to be moody, I have a very bad headache. I want to nap but I have work in a few hours so thats BOOOOO!!!!!

Monday, September 6, 2010

This Aint Nothin'

This Aint Nothin' by Craig Morgan is on my mind this afternoon. The lyrics are about an inner strength and how the material things aren't the things that matter. The things that matter are the relationships you have with the people around you. It makes me really thankful for the friends that I have and the family that loves me. Who knew that a sad country song would make me turn inward today? :p

Friday night I went to the Padres game with Patrick, Meagan and Gaston. Pics to follw :)

Friday, August 27, 2010

Another engagement

Another of my good friends recently became engaged, Congrats Hillary and Robert!
As happy as I am for all of my friends it's rather hard to be surrounded by all this love and commitment. I don't begrudge my friends their love at all, I just want some of my own is all.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

First day of school


Ever since kindergarten I have always gotten very excited about the first day of school, it's like u get a fresh start every september. If you had issues with a friend or a teacher the issue has usually resoled itself by the time school rolls around. You can debut a new you every year, I always underwent a style change or a new haircut or new make up every year. It's a chance to re define who you are and who you want to be.

now that I go to Southwestern I wasn't as excited as I used to be. I had more stress about it this semester than I've ever had before. yes I was still excited, but it had this tinge of stress. I always get excited for new teachers and new people, but college classes are hard. I have never had to work this hard before. So I guess I was pre stressing everything, maybe then I would be pleasantly surprised that it wasn't that hard. Well from the way my teachers are talking, they want us to have mental breakdowns by the end of the classes. So I guess now I've gotten over that initial stress, I'll adopt my regular attitude of get it done and then go play.

After all it's just one little semester

Monday, August 16, 2010

its been a while...

It's been a while since i've posted anything,
I think that it's time for this to be a regular blog again.
The fall semester is about to start and I'm nervous but ready for the new challenge, summer has gotten a little boring. I know, a 19 year old girl should be out having the time of her life. And I am, i just enjoy school. it gives me something to wile away my hours with, while still being constructive of course. so fir now I'm happy about tuesday coming soon.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Craigslist

Soooo, Craigslist. You can buy pretty much anything on this site, as well as sell pretty much anything on this site. I am currently selling my stereo. let me know if you are interested https://post.craigslist.org/manage/1839793736/75h6a

Monday, June 14, 2010

147/365 Friday June 11, 2010

Friday Meagan and Ian and I went to coronado beach for some fun in the sun. We spent 3 solid hours working on this Sand Castle and even participated in child labor. They wanted to help I swear! After the beach the 3 of us went to Mootime and got ice cream, I pilled all over myself of course. It's like the law of physics or something that if you're wearing someone else's clothes and eat something that has the most miniscule of possibilities of spilling it does. Later that evening Meagan and I went and cruised the mall for a little bit. We got pizza for dinner and watched bad TV and then went to bed at like 2 am like all teenagers having a slumber party should. We also watched Fame which was pretty decent. I liked it at least.

Saturday I went and visited Kayla and Sarah!! oh ya!

SARAHS BACK FROM SANTA CRUZ!!!!!!!!!

Later saturday Night I went and got Macaroni Grill Car Side To Go, and went to the drive in with a friend. We saw Get Him To The Greek and Splice. Get Him To The Greek was pure awesome and Splice was not great at all.

Sunday was spent in the company of family, My brother and his fiance came over for dinner and my best friend was here also but he's family any way! We cracked up all night at dinner just talking and having fun. Then I recruited my brother and best friend to help me move the furniture in my room. It looks really great now. My picture for Monday will probably be my finished room. Wish me luck getting it all organized!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

137/365 Tuesday June 1, 2010

Good day, i got cake at work, but all i ate was the frosting because somebody was trying to be sneaky and put vegetables in my cake (carrots, the travesty!)

136/365 Monday April 31 2010


Rubys, Shrek, and then Bowling with some friends :) it was a good day

Friday, May 28, 2010

The learning curve

Lately I've been on this learning curve, its a pretty steep one too. I'm learning about people around me, I'm learning about myself, and I'm learning about peoples reactions to myself. not everyone is accepting of me. I have a strong outer personality shell, it's loud and boisterous and likes to say a joke so you don't look to close. It's hard to crack that shell, a different me lurks inside. The painfully awkward girl, who still doesn't think she's pretty enough for anyone. The girl who would rather you look at her and see beauty. I don't know that many people have broken this shell, people always leave too soon. they're not willing to put in the work to break my hard outer shell. Little do they know the simple act of trying and sticking around melts it away like ice in the sun.

some of the things I've learned have shaken me out of my comfort zone and away from people who might have cared or maybe they didn't which is why they got lost in the confusion. It's hard to be happy when a lot of what you used to value in the world just gets up and walks out of it. I'm aware that this isn't forever and that my life will move forward, I just want to skip this uncomfortable part.

Monday, April 26, 2010

If your house was on fire and you could only grab three things, what would they be?

strictly material things would be my computer, my purse, and school stuff(i dont think the teachers would beleive me if i said my house burned down)

Ask me anything I'll answer!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

pic of the day

I have no idea what number i'm on. but I watched this documentary callled disconnected and it was about these 3 people who decided to go 3 weeks of their college term without a computer. they picked the 3 weeks before their finals

blog blog blog blog

Today this is just going to be a blog blog today.

So I feel like I've been working my butt off lately. School is difficult as always but for some reason I have absolutely no motivation. Like absolutely zero motivation. I need some suggestions on how to stay motivated. I don't really know what to do to get back into gear.

My work is super stressful also. I am there so much I feel like I don't have any time for any interpersonal relationships. I feel like a majority of my friends are just apathetic toward our friendship also. It kind of sucks when you feel like your friends don't always want you around. I realize that not all my friends are like this of course. But it's weird to realize that not everybody cares about you as much as you care about them.

I know this isn't forever, but it's like a stalled out truck. it's at the point where it's almost about to stop completely but you've still got the hope that you're engine is going to roar to life again

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sad Days are worse then cold sheets

Not in a good sort of mood, everything seems to be upsetting me this week. I don't understand why.
Billiards with the boy

Dinner Date With Hillary
Rocky with the friends

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I have no idea when they are from

I'm aware that these are frightfully out of order and also i have no idea when they're all from. I know this isn't enough for the last month or so.



The guitar gods
Dick's Last Resort
Campus
Pretty Hair
Pretty Car
A parents worst nightmare
Rollerskating on Easter in OB
Pretty Eyes
Giant

Monday, April 5, 2010

Thursday, April 1, 2010

that time

It's that time. That time when your body is screaming at you to go to sleep already but you just don't want to yet. You obstinately try to stay awake, like a kid waiting for Santa Clause before Christmas morning. I don't know what I'm waiting for this day before, But I'm waiting. I will keep sitting here not quite patiently waiting to figure out what exactly I am going to do when I figure out what I'm waiting for. Maybe if I just go to sleep I'll find solace and contentment in dreams, for dreams are an escape from the ordinary everyday trap that I find myself in time and time again. So good night moon, our discussion on our philosophies will have to wait for another sleepless night when I refuse to enter the world of dreams.

74...I think

I know there are a bunch of days missing but i have pictures for them it's just a matter of removing them from my camera. I will be doing that soon, I promise. For now I have Pictures from work 3/31/2010. I went to work today at 6 and the group i was there for never came, so i spent 2 and a half hours at work bored out of my mind. and heres some of the result


Favorite by far

my face


Friday, March 12, 2010

54 and 55

Cleaning out my closet, I just thoguht I looked adorable
My hardest class this semester by far

51-53

So much homework, so little time
exercise...ewww
I dropped my stuff on the table and this landed like this, I was so very amused

47-50

A Family Jam Session
dying my hair red, It looked like I had murdered someone in my bath tub
Fridays I usually wait for Hillary to get out of class and these are the things that amuse me for the hour that she is away from me

year of pictures

I have pictures for the last week however i don't remember when exactly they were taken. so i will post them with general explanations. sorry guys, I know i've been slacking

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

45/365 for 2/28/2010


He likes to give bear hugs, what can I say?

44/365 for 2/27/2010

I Tawt I Saw A Putty Tat!

43/365 for 2/26/2010

I literally watched this kid at school huddle over this little mushroom for like 20 minutes. what was he doing? He was cultivating it. He cleared away all the bark and made it a little drainage ditch. Little does he know that mushrooms grow best in a place like it was in, covered in bark and leaves, really damp and dark. He inadvertently signed it's death warrant, poor poor mushroom.