It's Superbowl Sunday

So it's Superbowl Sunday, and that really has no effects on my life... but I figured that's how I would title today.

Today I will be babysitting! I get to run around with some little tykes today, which should be fun.

Tomorrow I am plannin on hanging with a friend, I have no idea what were doing yet. We aren't even making solid plans because every time we do something happens. So this time we decided that we were just gonna leave the day open and see whats up.

It is just under 2 weeks until I go to San Francisco, I think I'm most excited about getting to tour SF State. My major is listed as impacted however, so my chances are kind of slim. Well I hope I get to tour it, you have to make an appointment after February 9th which is just 9 days before we wanna take the tour. I'll post pics from the trip for sure!

Second Week Of Spring Semester 2011

So far the spring semester has been off to a very sleepy start. My classes begin at 8:00 am which means I must take the 7:00 am bus which means that I wake up at 6:00 am each day. At least I did that for the first few days of classes. Now my mother takes me to school which means I get to sleep in a whole 25 ish minuites longer if I want to! Don't you just love parents sometimes?

I cannot remember at the moment when my last post was but I recently turned 20 years old. Which I suppose is a big deal. I am no longer a teenager, this must automatically mean that I am an adult with all those characteristics. Well...maybe not, but I'm working on it. I do like being 20 though, it does feel as if I'm just a little bit wiser. I do realize though that I am still yuiong and have lots to experience.

speaking of experience, I am going to San Francisco in about a month. My mom and I are going on our annual presidents day weekend girly getaway (aah, the sweet sound of alliteration). I am ridiculously excited to eb going on this trip. I love, love , LOVE San Francisco. While we are there we plan to take a tour of California State University Fresno. So far I haven't really had plans to transfer there but I do love the area and why not shoot for the moon?

The moon! Recently I have been getting a hankering to get out under the clear night sky and just feel small compared to it all. I have started an astronomy class this semester and it is really quite interesting, much more ibnteresting than I thought it would be. My teacher has this lovely dry sense of humor, today for instance we were in the planetarium getting an introduction to the sky and he had recordings that would play loud over the speakers. they were clip0s from star wars or the simpsons, it was funny in context....I guess you just had to be there...oh well for you.


this post has gotten rather long so I suppose I bid you adieu til' the next post. I'm aiming for next week but I don't know for sure if that will happen.

Little Lion Man

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Christmas Eve

So I write this morning looking out over boats as the sun rises slowly through the sky.

Tonight is my family's annual Christmas Eve party, I am really looking forward to it. My entire family will be there; Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Grandparents, and even a few Second Cousins. I look forward to this night all year, I'm especially looking forward to it this year because I didn't have to help with any of the set-up!

It probably feels like I haven't written on my blog in forever and I apologize most humbly for that. the last few weeks my computer has been on the fritz but it is fixed now thanks to my Mac Genius Kayla. Because it is fixed I decided to start this morning off with a blog post.

Living alone can be...well kind of lonely. I enjoy it for the most part though, I have spent the last few days wrapping presents in my own special way. The view outside my windows is amazing and I even have a back deck from which to enjoy it. I guess this update is just to assure the world that I am ok and livin' well.

My Brother i getting married

This week has been filled with crazy realizations that "holy crap! my brothers getting married!"

Moody Monday

Today is moody Monday. I dislike Mondays and therefore have decided to be moody today. In addition to deciding to be moody, I have a very bad headache. I want to nap but I have work in a few hours so thats BOOOOO!!!!!

This Aint Nothin'

This Aint Nothin' by Craig Morgan is on my mind this afternoon. The lyrics are about an inner strength and how the material things aren't the things that matter. The things that matter are the relationships you have with the people around you. It makes me really thankful for the friends that I have and the family that loves me. Who knew that a sad country song would make me turn inward today? :p

Friday night I went to the Padres game with Patrick, Meagan and Gaston. Pics to follw :)

Another engagement

Another of my good friends recently became engaged, Congrats Hillary and Robert!

As happy as I am for all of my friends it's rather hard to be surrounded by all this love and commitment. I don't begrudge my friends their love at all, I just want some of my own is all.

First day of school

Ever since kindergarten I have always gotten very excited about the first day of school, it's like u get a fresh start every september. If you had issues with a friend or a teacher the issue has usually resoled itself by the time school rolls around. You can debut a new you every year, I always underwent a style change or a new haircut or new make up every year. It's a chance to re define who you are and who you want to be.

now that I go to Southwestern I wasn't as excited as I used to be. I had more stress about it this semester than I've ever had before. yes I was still excited, but it had this tinge of stress. I always get excited for new teachers and new people, but college classes are hard. I have never had to work this hard before. So I guess I was pre stressing everything, maybe then I would be pleasantly surprised that it wasn't that hard. Well from the way my teachers are talking, they want us to have mental breakdowns by the end of the classes. So I guess now I've gotten over that initial stress, I'll adopt my regular attitude of get it done and then go play.

After all it's just one little semester

its been a while...

It's been a while since i've posted anything,

I think that it's time for this to be a regular blog again.

The fall semester is about to start and I'm nervous but ready for the new challenge, summer has gotten a little boring. I know, a 19 year old girl should be out having the time of her life. And I am, i just enjoy school. it gives me something to wile away my hours with, while still being constructive of course. so fir now I'm happy about tuesday coming soon.

Craigslist

Soooo, Craigslist. You can buy pretty much anything on this site, as well as sell pretty much anything on this site. I am currently selling my stereo. let me know if you are interested https://post.craigslist.org/manage/1839793736/75h6a

147/365 Friday June 11, 2010

Friday Meagan and Ian and I went to coronado beach for some fun in the sun. We spent 3 solid hours working on this Sand Castle and even participated in child labor. They wanted to help I swear! After the beach the 3 of us went to Mootime and got ice cream, I pilled all over myself of course. It's like the law of physics or something that if you're wearing someone else's clothes and eat something that has the most miniscule of possibilities of spilling it does. Later that evening Meagan and I went and cruised the mall for a little bit. We got pizza for dinner and watched bad TV and then went to bed at like 2 am like all teenagers having a slumber party should. We also watched Fame which was pretty decent. I liked it at least.

Saturday I went and visited Kayla and Sarah!! oh ya!

SARAHS BACK FROM SANTA CRUZ!!!!!!!!!

Later saturday Night I went and got Macaroni Grill Car Side To Go, and went to the drive in with a friend. We saw Get Him To The Greek and Splice. Get Him To The Greek was pure awesome and Splice was not great at all.

Sunday was spent in the company of family, My brother and his fiance came over for dinner and my best friend was here also but he's family any way! We cracked up all night at dinner just talking and having fun. Then I recruited my brother and best friend to help me move the furniture in my room. It looks really great now. My picture for Monday will probably be my finished room. Wish me luck getting it all organized!

137/365 Tuesday June 1, 2010

Good day, i got cake at work, but all i ate was the frosting because somebody was trying to be sneaky and put vegetables in my cake (carrots, the travesty!)

136/365 Monday April 31 2010

Rubys, Shrek, and then Bowling with some friends :) it was a good day

The learning curve

Lately I've been on this learning curve, its a pretty steep one too. I'm learning about people around me, I'm learning about myself, and I'm learning about peoples reactions to myself. not everyone is accepting of me. I have a strong outer personality shell, it's loud and boisterous and likes to say a joke so you don't look to close. It's hard to crack that shell, a different me lurks inside. The painfully awkward girl, who still doesn't think she's pretty enough for anyone. The girl who would rather you look at her and see beauty. I don't know that many people have broken this shell, people always leave too soon. they're not willing to put in the work to break my hard outer shell. Little do they know the simple act of trying and sticking around melts it away like ice in the sun.

some of the things I've learned have shaken me out of my comfort zone and away from people who might have cared or maybe they didn't which is why they got lost in the confusion. It's hard to be happy when a lot of what you used to value in the world just gets up and walks out of it. I'm aware that this isn't forever and that my life will move forward, I just want to skip this uncomfortable part.